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It’s Over…

My relationship with my girlfriend was over. Several days ago, she contacted me via BBM when she still on China. At first, she ask me about what i want to talk when she go home to Indonesia this month, as i ask her couple of times what date she would go home to Indonesia. Actually, i have not been talking with her since last March this year. I didn’t know the reason, why she changes so much since she go back from China on the beginning of the year. When she chat with me via BBM, she only say that she’s not happy with our relationship. And if she’s not happy, how can i be happy with her. When i ask the reason why she’s not happy, she just reply that she actually didn’t have any feeling with me since beginning. OMG…. i just shocked. How come, she so easily said that. Why she have relationship with me for 2.5 years if she never love me at all. So for all time, she’s just pretend to love me. How can she do that to me. It’s really hurt. I ever really love a girl 12 years ago, and she also said the same thing. And it’s like de javu, but it’s like in higher dosage of pain. Hufff…. when i just recall my memory again, i just realize that she ever said that why a girl have to do something for his boyfriend. She said that having a relationship doesn’t have to make any effort for their mate. So it’s true that she never love me, that’s why we can get this relationship to become more serious.

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What really hurts me, that since we don’t have any contacts since March this year, she suddenly become totally different person. She never contact me again, and she reluctantly reply my message when i try to text her. I feel likes she avoided me intentionally. I don’t why this can happen, maybe she already have someone else she love. When we broke up, she also asked her friends to not have a contact with me (means that she don’t want me trying to find out about her again. Mean she don’t want to  have contact with me at all). When i ask her personally about how her condition right now, she said that why i bother to care about what she doing, with whom she is now. She even barely reply my message. For me, how she treat me now is really really mean. It’s feel like, she treat me like an enemy. Having relationship for 2.5 years seems doesn’t mean anything for her. This really… really… hurt me. After her explanation that time, i decide to agree to what she want. I delete all of her contacts including phone number, BBM, Facebook, many other social media connections and other messenger contacts. If she will happy that way, I will never contact her again…

After all of this, i don’t want to hate her. I still love and care about her and really wish and pray sincerely that she find better boyfriends and live happily as she want. Having relationship with her teach me a lot of thing. Nowdays, what most woman want from a man are wealth. Sometimes they will not wait for you to succeed. I don’t blame them for this, because I am sure every woman wants a wealthy live. So it’s normal if my ex girlfriend decide to leave me when she found better boyfriend. What i have to do now is continue my life again. I am sure that this broken heart will heal again with time. I just don’t know how much time i need to recover, it maybe needs years. But i am sure God give me this experiences to make me learn something about life.

Finally, i just also wish my ex-girlfriend all the best and be success in everything. If she already have new boyfriend, i hope she could be happier than when with me. For me, all memories i spent with her were sweet and beautiful. Mimi, thank you for giving some good memories in every place we ever go together. Good bye, my love…

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